Good friends are like stars...You don't always see them, but

I'm sick and tired of seeing ungrateful jerks treat everyone else like they are worthless and placed on this earth to serve them, and serve them only.

I am sick and tired of being treated like I am worthless.

Correction: I am sick of feeling like I am worthless.

"A little girl was overheard praying, 'Lord, make all of the bad people good and all of the good people nice.' God wants his people to be good. But goodness isn't enough.
    In addition to being good, we need to be kind...."

Ephesians 4:2-3   "Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace."

Regrettably, all I want to do most of the time is show people where they are at fault; not because I want them to see how stupid they can be, but to see how stupid we can all be, and how to fix whatever it was that they did wrong.
    However, most of the time, nobody wants to hear about where they went wrong. I know I just want to keep on believing that whatever I am doing is "ok,"and that I don't need to change a thing.
    Change is an interesting thing. Sometimes I wish for it, but when it comes, I want everything to go back to the way it used to be; but if I never changed, I would never grow; and if I never grew, I would never learn; and if I never learned, where would I be? Knowledge is a key ingredient in figuring out how to defeat the Enemy; because whether I like it or not, he is powerful, and without a thorough knowledge of the Scripture, I am defenseless against it.
    So I say, "Sure, I know the Bible," but do I really? Do I feed on it daily, consuming its words as if they give me the air I breathe? As much as I would love to reply, "Yes! That is exactly what it's like!" I don't believe that it would be the honest truth.
    I am far from perfect; there is no good thing about me unless God takes me and turns me into something amazing. And I guess that that is just a hard concept for me to grasp. I want so badly to just be good, be perfect, fit in, and get along with every single person that I come in contact with. As you probably guessed, this idea doesn't work often, if at all. People hurt me, and they always will; they will leave their scars on me, and I will try again and again to heal them myself, only to make them all worse until I finally, finally come to the conclusion, and that is this: that I simply can't do it on my own.

And I don't know why, but for some reason it is extremely hard to admit. To know that I am inferior and won't succeed without the help of Another is hard to believe, because I am so very prideful, and I just want to believe that I will make it without Him;

but the shocking truth is that I won't make it if I don't let Him in. And I think He's been trying to show me that for a long time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WmfasWzdyHs


Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

You don't know my name
you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back

[Chorus]
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

If you could read my mind
You might see more of me that meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance

[Chorus]
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time

[Chorus x2]
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in